Pouring Down Like the Rain

Well I guess this is a start to a fun, but super busy weekend. God has blessed me so much these last few weeks. He has given me amazing friends, which I affectionately call my family, he’s helped me through things that I never thought I’d make it through, he has blessed me with an amazing new laptop, and just today I went to pick up my replacement phone and I guess they decided to upgrade my phone. I haven’t got it yet (they’re swapping the phone book right now and I’m at Panera eating some soup), but the lady who was helping me went back to see if it was in and she walked back to me and was like “whoever ordered your phone hooked you up”. They didn’t just upgrade it a little. It was like I skipped 3 upgrades she said. So how frickin awesome is that? I love Jesus! Tonight I’m going out with my friends to see X-men 3. I’m pretty excited. I am gonna miss this place. It’s less than a month until I leave here. Jon’s only gonna get to hang out with me for 2 more weeks. It’s sad I’m leaving all of my best friends, but I really just can’t wait to make this change. Melissa’s right, this is a dream come true for me. I’ve always known I wanted to get the heck out of Downriver. I’ve always known I was meant for something different. I don’t know exactly what it is yet, but I feel like I’m finally on the right path. I pray that things with me and God can keep going the way that they have been. I just feel so safe, like I’m on the edge of the proverbial cliff and I can finally just let go and trust that God will catch me. It’s a feeling I’ve never experienced before but it is really amazing. It’s so weird to think that less than 2 weeks ago I was questioning if God even loved me. But now I know the answer. And I love Him more than I even thought possible. He is shaping and changing me. I feel so awesome inside. I love you Jesus.

Meliss

I've Found the Love of my Life

Well I want to start this blog by telling you how amazing my God is. That's the precursor to every other part of this blog. He has done so much. I love Him more than anything. He's the love of my life. Purple Like Reggae is doing really well. We're doing a day of prayer and fasting this Sunday in regards to Mike planting a church. A lot of the people in the group are having a tough decision on whether to stay with Metro or go with Mike and we want to seek God's direction on it. So this comming Sunday you are welcome to fast and pray with us. I will post details about where we are meeting after church to pray after tomorrow night when we nail everything down. Mike will be there (or at least stop by for a bit). I would love it if anyone who reads this would stop by. Even though I really wish I could stick around sometimes I am moving. In a month actually. It seems to be creeping right up on me. I'm really excited. I know that it's going to give me a chance to really find out things I've never known about myself and more importantly give me a chance to get closer to God than I ever have before. I cannot say enough how much I love Wally and Sarah. They are two of the greatest people God has ever put in my life and I really thank Him for that everyday. I've got another friend God has blessed me with, being Jt. I've known him for quite a while, but I've never really gotten to know him. He is really just such a cool guy. I am so sad that we've just now gotten to be such good friends and I am leaving in a month. He's so awesome though. Can't stress that enough... again... ladies, he's single... any takers? Check out my myspace profile pictures, I've got a couple of him on there. The other night me, him, Jon, and Kat were all hanging out. We went to a couple "haunted places" and then we got food and went to Hall Rd. Park. There was this glider thing, so I thought since everyone was doing it I should try.... bad idea.My shoes were wet. I didn't have a good grip on the thing, and so I was 2 feet off the ground and fell. On my back and my head. I got a mild concussion and ripped a muscle in my neck and hurt my back. Yeah, it sucks. But still I had a lot of fun that night b4 the painful fall. Oh and praise God! My car doesn't need anything! It's all good and it was nothing but a thermostat. The tires finally got rotated and they're okay. Everythings good with it. I am so extatic. Another prayer God answered was about the last post I made. On so many levels he answered my cries to Him. I'm completely out of love with the guy I thought I was in love with for so many years. I have no desire to be with him at all anymore. It's such a freeing feeling. I have literally let go of all of "those kind" of feelings for him. I realized that he just isn't the kind of guy I want to marry and THANK YOU MEGAN FISHER FOR BEING RIGHT! I will not settle. If that means I'll be alone forever. I'd rather have nothing that something that isn't what I really want anyway. God has really shown me that I'm not alone. He's starting to take the feeling away from me. He's replacing it with great friends like Jt and Kat, and reparing rifts in the old friendships. He is an amazing God isn't He?

In His Hands,

Spearmint

And it moves on...

So I went to Aaron and Danielle's wedding this weekend. Daniella was beautiful of course. And I'll quote my best friend in saying that you could see the love between them when they walked into a room. It was fun and I loved hanging out with my friends. It was also really depressing. At points I was crying. Some reasons I don't want to write about, but I just feel like I'll end up alone. After the wedding, I went to drop Jon off at his car which was at Melissa's house. He got in his car and I just waited for him to leave. He wouldn't. He said I had to leave first. I just wanted to sit alone and cry. He wouldn't let me. I finally was like "Okay, I'm going", and I drove away. I was supposed to be going to Shane's house, so I turned the corner and then just turned into a gas station. I should have used the other entrance, because as I turned my car off he pulled up beside me. He got in my car and we talked for quite a while, actually I talked... and cried. It was cool to be able to sit with someone and just let things out. I was really honest and open and just let go. And I know if you are reading this and you know me, you probably think that it's about a "me and him". No, not really. It was about a "me and anyone". It was the past, it was the future, it was the now. It was my fears, it was my faults, it was my pain. After I said everything I could, all he could suggest was that I talk to someone about it (not in a mean way of course). He was really sweet that night. I wish he could be like that more often. There are rare times when I feel as though I'm not a bother to my friends. I always feel like I am such a burden to all those around me, my parents just happen to be the only ones who say it on a regular basis. There are times when friends say it, sometimes using words, other times with their actions. It's hard to swallow. People are busy, I know this. I just feel so alone. I guess leaving will be good. It will get me out of everyone's hair. I told Jon that last night, that me leaving would be good because then we wouldn't get to hang out anymore and he said that he couldn't lie, he agreed. Yeah, it's the things like that that hurt. After comments like "You have been hurt so much by people in the past", why not hurt me more? Logical isn't it. Whatever. Sorry that was a few seconds worth of rant. I apologize, I've got myself all worked up and crying. And I gotta go to work, silly me. Well I am moving. In a month an a half. 45 days to be exact. I'm a mix of emotions: sad, happy, excited, and all that jazz. I will put one more thing in this blog before I go... busy day today with work and such. Josh Tanner is literally one of the coolest people ever. We sat and talked the other night and it was really fun. To be honest I was telling Jon last night that that was one of the funnest times I've had hanging out with people in a long time, he literally made me feel like he wanted to hang out with me. Not something I get too much from too many people anymore. But we just talked and joked for hours. He is one quality guy. To any single ladies out there... I'm now taking apps for the position of JT's girl friend. Let me know if you are interested in dating a 23 year old single Christian guy who's a "Sexy man beast"... lol. Seriously, he's the best. Lol. Anyway. I'm off to work...


Spears

Appalling

I don't believe I have ever been so appalled as when I stumbled upon a video interview with Shirley Phelps-Roper. I don't know if you have heard of her church or not, but they run a website called godhatesfags.com. They protest funerals of those who have given their lives in service to our country... to protect the right of free speech for idiots like her. They say that soldiers are going to hell because they serve a country that supports gays. They have signs that read "God hates fags" "God hates America" and the kicker "God hates you". I don't know who the God is that they serve, but that is not MY GOD. My God is a God of LOVE and PEACE. A God of FORGIVENESS and MERCY. Her father (and coincedently also her father-in-law because she is married to her step brother) has been noting saying "You can't preach the Bible without preaching hatred." and
"God doesn't hate them because they're fags; they're fags because God hates them." I really am so discusted and sickened by this whole group. This is what really happens when Christianity is distorted. It's heart breaking. Let me just lay down some truth...

Matthew 22:37-40 -- Jesus replied, " 'You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. A second is equally important: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' "

Luke 6: 36-37 -- You must be compasionate, just as your father is compassionate. Stop judging others and you will not be judged. Stop criticizing others or it will all come back on you. If you forgive others, you will be forgiven.

Luke 24:47 -- With my authority, take this message of repentance to all the nations, beginning in Jerusalem: `There is forgiveness of sins for all who turn to me.'


AND NOMATTER WHAT PEOPLE LIKE HER SAY... IT DOESN'T MATTER... .What GOD says MATTERS. Those are HIS words and HE LOVES YOU!!!!!!!!

Peace out...

Spears

An Update

Well, life's moving pretty fast for me right now. I'm moving to Grand Haven in a month and a half, starting school in Muskegon a day after I get there and then I've gotta find an apartment. Here in the Downriver, I've been going crazy with things to do. Two jobs, a wedding, an engagement, spending what time I have left with friends when I can. I'm short on money, time and on sleep. I won't be able to go to New York with Cession now because I won't have the money. But in the mix of disappointment, stress, trials and busyness, God and I are actually finding time to spend together. It's pretty amazing. He's on my mind so much and even though now I'm going through stuff that is hard to handle, I can hold on. Last night I had a break down on the phone with a friend. When the conversation ended I still wasn't doing well. Then God and I got to talkin and He just made me feel so much better. I trust Him to take care of me and though I feel alone, stressed out, and sad at times, He can take me in His arms, hold me and whisper comforting words that make the saddest thoughts run and hide because He does have plans for my future. Plans to prosper me and not to harm me. Though things may be hard now, they won't be hard forever and He's trying to show me that even if it's just me and Him, that's enough. I don't need anything or anyone else to fall back on. It's a hard lesson to learn, but one that I need to be taught. He's touched my heart in a way that I can't even describe. I'm really in love with this God. I pray that He continues to change me into who He wants me to become. Purple Like Raggae is going good though. Discussion is evolving and everyone is sharing their opinions. Not everyone shares the same views which I think is the best part. I like the fact that we are a group that can say what they're thinking and even if no one agrees, they won't just be shot down. People can take what they're saying or leave it, but none the less it can be said. Well I've gotta get to work, so that's all for now....

In His Hands,

Meliss